My crazy fucked up life

So slowly my life has gone totally crazy. I had a hella good weekend. I went to Bachelor with Jeremiah and his hall.. well there were 10 of us that went 5 RAs and 5 residents and only two of the residents were from his hall, but whatev... It was a fun trip for the most part. I'm never letting Matt and Jeremiah lead again though. They didn't get us lost on the way there but once we got there they couldn't find the lodge and we had to drive around forever. It was pretty funny actually. The boys are cuties... We went to the Nike outlet and I bought myself a new pair of running shoes. The shoes I really wanted were these nice gore-tex shoes, but they looked fugly on my feet. They were originally $120 marked down to $40. That really pissed me off though. If you mark up your shoes so much that you can mark them down to that and make it seem like a good deal then you really are the devil. On the other hand it's pretty ingenious that they can do that and still get people to buy their shoes. We also went to goodwill, but I didn't really find anything all that great there. The lodges we stayed in were really nice. We got two rooms and each room had a kitchen then a living room area with a pull out couch, then a loft with two queen beds. Since there were only ten people, five and five in each room worked out nicely. There was a hot tub there and that was real fun. the guys were dorks and decided to run out of the hot tub way the fuck across the way hop in a little icy patch, roll around, then run back to the hot tub. It was funny. they were pretty cute. Then before we went to be we watched My Big Fat Greek Wedding. I'd never seen it before I liked it a lot.

Now to my real problems. I got in a huge fight with my friend. She doesn't like the fact that I'm spending all this time with a new friend that I made. She feels like I'm neglecting our friendship, and to be honest I am. And I feel bad about that, but at the same time this girl is bugging the crap out of me. She is contantly giving me guilt trips about things, making me feel bad when I want to do things with other people, acting like I should be priasing the lord that she's friends with because she puts up with so much shit for it. I never asked her to do any of that. I'm not gonna praise the ground she walks on like she's the queen of sheba or something. She thinks she's a lot more mature than she really is, and it bugs me. The fact that I've been hanging out with her less has a lot more to do with that than with who I hang out with now. I'm sorry that there have to be lines in our friendship because of how things are right now, but you can't wish there weren't lines then bring them back up when they are convienent for you. Thats not fair. Realistically the lines are there all the time, but you can't say in certain situations I want there to be a line and in other situations I don't. Thats not fair to us or to you because then you are always upset. well generally she's upset at something at most times anyway... She just... I don't know... I need to stop bitching about this I know. At this point though I could honestly never talk to her again and be OK with it. I can't do that though because she's super involved with everything, and I need to be able to work with her without there being tension. The thing I'm most afraid of is losing our mutual friends. I don't want them to be put in the middle of all this stupid fucking drama that should have been left in high school. I feel bad cuz I know they are in the middle and I'm afraid that they are gonna get pissed at me and I'll lose them because of it and that is the last thing I can deal with right now... I don't know... I say fuck it all... is it even worth it in the end...